“Who me, Lord? No. That must not be what I heard. I must be thinking too much of myself. I must be confusing my thoughts with Gods. I need to do a better job at hearing from Him.”
Have you done it?
I was called to be the mother of two amazing boys. I remember when they entered into my life and how stunned and shocked I was at the responsibility and idea that I would be their mother. I was not ready. I had anger issues. I was frustrated. I was not organized enough. I could barely take care of the house I lived in, and then I had two boys to take care of as well.
When they got older and the idea of homeschooling crossed paths with me I knew it was what we were to do, but I panicked. I panicked a lot the 12 years following. What if I messed them up? What if I was wrong and they should have been in another educational setting? I didn’t envision myself as the right person for the job many many times.
When God calls us to something, He also qualifies us. They were our boys, so I was then qualified to be their mother. He called us to homeschool, so I was then qualified to teach them. Did I do it perfectly? No. I believe I learned more than they did most days, both educationally and personally. I grew through the experience of being their mother and teacher. I became more of who I was designed to be simply by being in their presence. There is nothing like seeing yourself through the eyes of your child to send you to your knees.
God purposed me to raise these two boys, and with His help that is what has been happening around here. His purpose for me made me more dependent on Him. I did not do it on my own. The two young men in my life are not due to anything I have done. But I can look at them and know God is doing a good thing in their life, as He did with mine when He gave them to me.
Sometimes it’s hard to step out in what God has called us to do. Sometimes the fear overtakes us and we simply stop. Keep walking. Grow more dependent on God. Allow Him to work through you for the purposes He designed for you. Choose Him.